February 2011
January 2011
classes in mt. sac...
HAHA HOPEFULLY I CAN GET 5 CLASSES XD crazy much yes, but why not, they seem pretty easy to manage and plus i need the units. to bad i couldn’t get into MATH 71 because fucking everyone needs to take it -____- OH i might be taking modern dance just for the hell of it because i don’t want to be home until 12 on monday ( even though its my worst days ever ). right now i’m...
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thinking...
i can’t stop thinking about you, i do want to stop but i feel its like the only i can be with you. sounds fucking stupid but it feels so true…
bentran:
Forgive me for liking you too much, I’ll forgive you for not liking me enough. Forgive me for the loud racing of my heart, I’ll forgive you for not hearing it. Forgive me for finding you amazing, I’ll forgive you for never noticing. Forgive me for wanting to be with you more than anything, I’ll forgive you for avoiding me. Forgive me for being so pathetic, I’ll forgive you for taking...
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its going to rain on valentine's day...
i don’t know, just posting up assumptions.
i hate rain but it seems to rain on the days when i feel depress. -___- BULLSHIT! RAIN YOU’RE NOT HELPING!
Chapter 4 Day 29
winter celebration.
i kind of don’t want to talk about today. i saw people i didn’t want to see. i saw something that made me die inside. today was just depressing. i’m sorry but i tried my hardest to be happy today, it seemed to work.
Day 29 skipped…
- i didn’t know i can get so attached so fast. now i just don’t know what to do, everything that happens in...
Chapter 4 Day 28
this day was a fail but fun day!
i woke up earlier than usual ( around 9 or 10 ish ) so i can get ready and be done by like 2 ish. so i ate breakfast, went on tumblr and edit some photos before i left. then i started to get ready around 12. of course i had to tell my parents what i was going to do today and it was go to the beach. my mom was alright with it but it was my dad that had problems...
keeeilah:
*Sigh.
I’m such a mess.
tripod fail!
this is obvious but i shouldn’t always have my camera on a tripod. i guess i’ve been doing it because i got so comfortable doing it. yeah, i’m going to start taking off the tripod. haha cris’s technique is really useful though since we don’t pocket wizards, just the only bad thing is that there is a slight blur if we don’t do it fast enough. can’t wait to...
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i'm up...
its so fucking early and thats not even the worst part. i woke up with a bloody nose, thats really bad because i feel i only get a bloody nose when something bad has happen OR is going to happen. my sleeping pattern this whole is just ridiculously stupid. sigh…
- i can’t stop thinking about you. why did it all have to go wrong. i feel i’m letting this whole thing take over me...
gah!
i don’t know how to ask. i had a dream about how this would turn out already. man, i’m pretty scared i won’t be able to drive today -___- FUCK!
i finally slept.
but i woke up an hour later… -___- this night better end fast.
Chapter 4 Day 27
i didn’t sleep until 8 today. hope do i know i didn’t because i set my alarm at 8 and i was still awake when it went off. its getting worst.
i woke up at 1:30 ish, i stayed in bed for at least another hour until i decided to go to the kitchen and eat lunch. then back to my room where i just went on my laptop and download more music. i went back to bed and just laid there with my eyes...
Chapter 4 Day 26
skip. its was a good day but i just don’t want to talk about it.
Day 26 end…
- ” everything is going to be ok “
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now what.
what do i do now. i’m left with nothing. what the fuck am i suppose to do now. shit, i swear this whole time my life was just dream. out of no where i was pitched out of it into reality. now i feel like i was just pretending to be happy. hiding all my sadness from everyone so i wouldn’t have to be asked if i was ok. of course i’m not but am i really going to tell you that, no. i...
Chapter 4 Day 25
ok, so i woke up feeling like shit because i couldn’t sleep until 7.
i woke up and my mom gave me a talk about college and she told me what this accountant advise me to do. which was sign up to another community college. she said to go try and i said OK sure, i’ll go try. BUT i told her i have no gas. she said she’ll give me gas and i said, what a perfect opportunity just to go...
Chapter 4 Day 24
so i woke up pretty late, kind of today because i slept late -___-
but today was a ride down memory lane, sort of. i remember waking up and eating breakfast and then lunch right after ( haha cereal and then rice with hot dogs XD ). moving on, i didn’t know what was going to happen today. so i started making calls and such.
i didn’t do anything until like 3:30 ish. plans were pretty...
Citrus College...
so my mom talked to me about college again. she said why i couldn’t get classes and i told her for like the 5th time this month; my registration hasn’t open yet and i’m a low priority student in mt. sac right now.
anyways, my mom was telling me how she talked to this accountant yesterday and they were talking about college and me because i couldn’t get enough classes. so...
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immaturity...
ok i know for a fact i can be real immature. I KNOW but i also know that when it comes to the time to be mature, i will be. BUT telling me i don’t know my rights from wrongs! what the fuck, really! i have done nothing wrong, NOTHING! but you’re judging from the things that weren’t even my fault. yeah i know i was in a accident but was it my fault? no, i wasn’t even parked...
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change...
is good in some ways and bad in some ways too. when people change, what does it mean. are they either bad or good?
- i didn’t mean it. i’m sorry that i distance myself right afterwards but its only for you. so i don’t come back; all i ever wanted was you but i know now that i can’t have you back, ever. its ok, i’ll just accept it because you’re different person...
i'm doing my hair this week!
regardless on how damage it is! i want this photo shoot to be freakin SICK! XD i hope everything works out this week…
Chapter 4 Day 23
today was funny. it was my conceited day because i had no model and had nothing else to do but take pictures at the park.
i woke up ( to her text =D ) and sat around doing nothing. my parents came home with food but instead i decided to eat breakfast rather than lunch because i didn’t want lunch for some reason. well i just ate and edit some of the photos i took yesterday at starbucks.
so...
It's never too late to fix things...
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shadow oak park...
alright heres the thing. i’ve been going to that park ever since 8th grade i believe. i’ve been living in the west covina district for 14 years ( thats practically my whole life because the first 4 years i was still a little baby in LA ). anyways, back to shadow oak, i’ve been going there for 5 years and never in those 5 years until THIS YEAR have i seen photographers go there so...
valentine's...
i’m going to trust on what you said and hope for the best because =]
Chapter 3 Day 22
today was a unplanned day but it still turned out to be awesome.
i was suppose to go to the beach today but since it was plan last minute, i couldn’t invite people to go, kind of. hopefully next week for sure =] instead today started off with me getting ready to drop off my sister at the mall. i did have to wait for her friends though because i had to pick them up to drop them all there....
looking through mt. sac class schedule...
i don’t know if i should take a music class because i don’t know any other classes to take as my 4th one ( i hope i can get at least 4 ). or should i just take a dance class. man! this is harsh!
yeah...
i guess i’ll just go my view and chill there for a bit, probably take some pictures and then go home for the day. beach fail BUT its all good because it was last minute anyways so its ok. understandable XD oh maybe i can get some boba at dolphin bay or if i have enough, half & half but what are the chances of me having that much.
- hmmmmmmm what to think about this.
so guys!
who wants to go to santa monica pier today with me? LOL
Chapter 3 Day 21
i woke up pretty late today, like around 1 ish because for some reason i was super tired but then again, when am i not.
anyways, started off like any other day. waking up and eating breakfast, then i started to plan my day. yes, i made tons of phone calls because i wanted to go out today and have a photo shoot ( its failed again ). i did meet up with with cris and monica at shadow oak park to...
you confuse me.
why is it so hard to talk/express shit!! (block) D;
fuck…!
what do i do...
for today, i want to go out and take pictures but i don’t want to go alone. i want to go to the beach but i have no money for parking and i probably won’t have anyone to go with. fucking sad life! i got my license to start going places, but i hate it because i don’t ever want to go out alone.
can someone hangout with me? =[
Chapter 3 Day 20
a productive day, it was ( haha, i try ).
today was the first time in awhile that i’ve waken up at 8:30 ish ( i’m telling myself it because of you i woke up ). i woke up and made some hot chocolate and ate some chip ahoy with it. the bad about that combination was nothing, just that the milk i used to make the hot chocolate was expired. so that whole tasted really bad, i had to throw...
what the SHIT!
why is it SOOO HARD TO TALK TO YOU! sad face… soon, very soon it’ll get easier. i hope D;
Chapter 3 Day 19
today was a ehh day, kind of. well i’ll say the end of the day.
today i woke up, stay up for awhile and got a phone call ( i woke up around 12:30 ish ). it was remie asking me what i was doing today and such. he told me he was coming down to the area ( covina ) today, so he asked if i wanted to hang out and i said sure. so i met up with him at chipotle and yeah. he started talking about...
i woke up early...
i don’t know why but its been awhile since i have though. the morning seems so calm and peaceful with birds chirping and all those wonderful things that happen in the morning. i have lots to do today, so i’m going to get started, kind of. =]